The ball is rolling. Literally. I've started a storm from which there is no escaping. Unless you're me. That's the purpose. I just took a test, walked all over it, and am proceeding to the next phases of this multi-stage job application. At least on the civilian side. My military side is being put on hold so that I can get and maintain a civilian career. After that, it looks like EOD, CID, or Cav Scout (all Army) are my top contenders for my military development. Either way, I'm going to try and switch to the Reserve component instead of staying National Guard. In short, plans are moving along rather smoothly, although more slowly than expected.

I can't wait to get out of here. By here I mean home. Yeah, I know I just got back from the box, but still... I can't find a job that hires, and I've been looking and trying since August '08. Even those Vets helping Vets programs won't pick me up. So I'm on my last ditch effort to get some kind of job, hopefully one I like, or its back to the box for me. Not that I care much, I enjoyed my time over there. Wasn't well spent, but it wasn't the nightmare for me that everyone complains about. I have a cushy job. Not that I like that cushy job, but at least I won't be without a skill. I have to stay optimistic about stuff. Usually not my style. I like being a realist, but I'm sure this is not the time or place. Speaking of place, as I write this, I'm in Washington D.C. working on job applications. I flew from Seattle to D.C. to take an hour long test. A test that, as stated above, was a cakewalk. Hell, if I had known it was going to be that easy, I would have slept in another half hour instead of panicking over a study guide from Borders that turned out to be worthless. Oh well. Maybe it will come in handy for a different test somewhere else. For all I know, it could be different. And I can't remember how to do long division by hand. I don't blame me. That's what programming and calculators are for.



Another note, my BlackBerry drowned in a cup of milk. If I don't have your number, and you have mine, do call me and leave a message so that I can resurrect my directory to a SIM phone I bought in Kuwait on the way to Iraq. Thank the gods for pointless spending.

Ok, I have my camera loaded, and I'm in my nation's capital. Why am I not out there shooting photos of everything that looks old? Because that would OBVIOUSLY leave me with a bunch of photos of old people like politicians, and no room on my memory card for snapping pics of cool stuff like birds eating each other. They did that in Iraq. Maybe it was the air quality, because after a while, people in my battalion started going zombie-ish with brain hunger on fellow squad-mates. Luckily for me, I'd inhaled enough jet fuel exhaust that my brain was too cooked to go zombie. And I am a ninja. The real reason I'm not shooting photos of cool stuff is because I'm lazy and tired, and accidentally stayed up all night yapping it up. And my computer is broken.



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My Mac OS (you know, the operating system that comes pre-installed when you buy a Mac/Apple computer) refuses to boot. That leaves me without my 1400 dollar Adobe Suite, which has photoshop in it. But oh, my Windows side boots just fine. You'd think it'd be opposite. Anyway, I'm looking at getting a new Mac, and moving all my registered programs to it. It'l be worth the effort, and I may consider getting an entirely separate computer (Windows) for gaming and programming and whatnot. So there you have it. I'm going to ask a friend to help me with a few Photoshoppings until I restabilize my tech status.

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Revving up the storm guys. Everything went to the vortex, and I got some new version of skewed. Much as the usual way of things, I won't be giving much in the way of details. Not yet anyway. We'll see what happens, eh? Yaaaay.


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Alright, well some new glorious brown lumpy objects just hit a rotating disc of blades. I need a job. I want to go back on Active Duty. The army won't let me go active duty because I haven't been home from deployment for 90 days or more yet. But that same Army won't put me on temp status to earn something while I wait out that period. So, now I'm tired of playing games with the Guard. Tired of wasting my time, busting my ass, only to have them go out of their way to research one more way to screw us. Solution? DD Form 368. All that needs to be said, my friends. If not that, I've got no less than two loopholes I can exploit. Tell me if I'm wrong, but I've been rather successful at exploiting loopholes in the past. Especially with redundant and useless systems.

Well, once again I'm home. Once again I'm pissed off about how stupid the people surrounding me are. On a myspacey note, I think I've lapsed quite far into the civilian side of complacency. And yes, I have a large disdain for civilians. Especially the ungrateful ones who think they deserve the world without thinking they need to work for it.



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While society at large hasn't proven to me that they are worthy of my respect, I will allow that each and every person deserves courtesy and dignity, albeit still earned. I still stand by my policy of "you earn it, THEN you get it." People who walk around thinking I should treat them like a god or goddess can shove my boot up their ass. As far as I'm concerned, that's preferential treatment that nobody really gets from me. And its attention, which is really all they're after. If this section bugs you, then we've probably never really hung out much, and/or that we don't know each other that well.

So I got my camera charged up. One down, one to go. About to head over to September Crown, and SCA event in North Bend, WA. Shooting pics of the next King and Queen. Oh, yeah. And maybe some fighting.



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So I got the pics. Got them loaded to my hard drive. Didn't load them here. Why? Because I'm repairing the Mac side of my computer, where my Web Design Creative Suite CS3 happens to be installed. That only matters because Photoshop CS3 is in that bunch. So when I get stuff squared away (reference to professional update), you all get your pics. Not that it matters, I've not been feeling that artsy much lately anyhow.

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Alright, fuckers. This is what I've got so far. I still have to go to WLC/PLDC, but after that I'm stuck in Washington for a period of about six months. During this time I'll take care of my final preparations for going SF. I don't have anything training related, so to say. Just to make note that things are becoming finalized, and details to older plans can be made.

As the time to go home draws closer and closer, I'm able to make longer term plans for my own personal amusement. Trips, visits, demon summoning events, LAN tournaments, etc. So here it is. I'm about to get the hell out of this fucking country. I don't have to be a Tango anymore. Which means I don't have to work on helicopters anymore. I did it. I am fucking victorious. And I survived this whole thing without any real problems.

About v6. It sucks. Its a mess. Its fucking horrible. Why the hell would they do this to us? There were more people than just me who wanted Channels to BE the frontpage. Is that so hard to ask? I don't want to see 500 fucking submissions when I log in. I want to see the submissions from people that I watch, not a bunch of kids submitting drawings of elf ears on lined paper, or some pervert trying to see how many naked pictures he can upload. Ladies and Gentlemen, I want the old version back. Legacy, I believe it was called. Or v5. Whatever. The Message Centre is a gods damned mess, on top of everything else. The DD's on the bottom are ok. At least they aren't at the top, blocking out what I wanted to click on in the first place. And let's talk about bandwidth. I have a good internet connection, and a damn good computer, and this version loads slow as shit.

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Well, with the official word given, and a great many things fast approaching, it seems Brother Azrael's highly anticipated Hot Tamale contest will begin quite a bit earlier than planned. Of course, I'll keep you updated on that. There are many reasons I could give as to why I would like to come home right now. One in particular. It isn't up for discussion. However, we're shortening out the timelines before Brother Azrael and I leave for Special Forces. There is fast becoming less and less reason to hang around in a place that no longer holds any value to us. We will act accordingly to see the plan carried out.

There is so much that has happened recently. Too much to really sit down and analyze them in depth. Too much to care. And it also seems that there have been attempts from the homefront to play me like I'm some kind of toy. These people will be called out individually in time. For the record, don't you think I don't know what you think I don't know. The STS is approaching, and I don't intend to carry my past with me through that barrier. I don't regret what I'm about to do. I can't. I'm not capable of regret or guilt. I haven't been for a long time. Its time to balance out my past so that I can leave it completely behind. As you might gather, my mind is in several pieces right now. Everything is falling into place, but we've been damaged on the way. All of us. And its far from over. Comrades, if I never hear from you again, or you from me, I wish you the best.

My cameras have been logged and secured. DD 1750s printed, attached, emailed, and secured. It will go as my advance party home and I will make contact with it upon my return. The lock has been shut for the last time, and within the next 48 hours, it will travel home. I need to get my lenses cleaned as well, and hopefully before this event that I have planned. Once I'm home, a good number of pictures will be analyzed and probably posted. Or not. And another note, I'm not too thrilled about dA v6. Its very disorganized. Check it out HERE. I want to see my channels of the people I stalk when I log in. Not 120 submissions of half drawn manga and hold-it-yourself self portraits in the bathroom that really only belong on MySpace. I stalk the people because they actually produce, you know, ART.

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